So it begins...

It has always been a constant battle . the fight for the unattainable . It has been the fight for health. The fight for beauty. And The fight for confidance. It all comes down to weight. I have been up (286 pounds), down (190 after a fit of self induced bulimea my freshman year). and around (233 pounds my weight starting the wrrv fit club) .Now I have had some big acomplishements this past 16 months . I have come down from my all time highest weight of almost 300 pounds to around 220 ans back up to 240 . It has been a struggle and I have hit many walls and have had many setbacks . But I have had a reawakening. no more will I be unhappy with the girl I see in the mirror . no more will I partake in unhealthy crash diets and dangerous overexcercising for a quick fix. I am ready to make a change and I have been improving . The thing that has jumpstarted my healthy weightloss is when i was chosen to be one of the lucky 96. Wrrv has a fitclub every year where they pick 96 listeners for their anual "Fit Club Challange". We get 3 free months of golds gym and prizes if we are the ultimate winner at the end of 12 weeks. Just winning the golds membership has been a huge kick in the ass for me . I mean I have been paying $42 a month for a gym that I have not seen the inside of for 5 months. Its crazy I guess I thought that if I keep up with my membership I would have not completly given up on myself . Anyway Im going to cut this blog short because I am pretty much just rambling ..